It didn't take long

I have never known pms to be long lasting. So this shit is either anxiety or severe pms. But I feel like I want to cry half the fucking time. The other half I feel overwhelmed. Went down on my meds. Well okay let's be honest. I stopped taking them because they made me wired. But I took them today.

Anyways, it didn't take long for me to feel like I was going to flip my fucking lid. Depressed. Just like before. Wonder fucking ful. I am so tired of it. I really am.

I wanted to cry friday night. I felt bad all day sunday and had to be by myself, overwhelmed. Today I feel like I need to disconnect and I feel weepy. SO fucking tired of it.

I hate my chemicals or whatever the fuck is in my head that makes me like this. I didn't even want dbf to visit. Just felt irritated in general. Kids irritated me. Mom irritated me. All of them made me feel anxious. ARGH GOD DAMNIT I need to scream.

MMMM. That's all I got for tonight. Life still fucking sucks. Amen.